Hello and welcome,this is a very personal post,that touches me dearly ..
The reality of being a childless man at 50 years old.
yes i never had any children of my own,I helped raised a son from my first wife from the age of 7.Yes we are still a family even after his mother has passed away..
After my first wife passed I thought of the desire at 38 at the time if to have kids.I dated a woman for while who wanted kids and we did try.But never had any..after few years we did not work out and I met another woman who’s kids were grown but had baby grandchildren ..Which the grandkids filled a void for a while , but the heart ache of never having my own daughter always haunted me..
Many nights I actually have tears that I wanted to be a father and a dad,I wanted a daughter something bad..This day and I have so much heart ache and depression for never having my own kids..Yes people it does hurt so bad even to a man..And I’m to tell you it’s true honest depression ..
my life just doesn’t feel complete, am I crazy for these feelings , I don’t know, has any men felt like this,can someone help ease my mind ,will feeling of heart ache ever leave..an empty crib,,makes my heart ache..I love kids and adore kids ..
So in the end I loved all my step kids and grandkids.. but that feeling of someone saying daddy,and never hearing that hurts after all these years..
would I ever give up hope ,,are you ever to old , i say no never give up or you are too old..
i know this was a post maybe many don’t understand but I just felt like I had express my feeling as childless man..